It has been a long while since i have posted anything.

There have been ups and downs in these unreported days, such as uni is not going so well before but back on track now, thank god and some family problems and some personal problems.

Alot has happened and i can barely remember it all in detail. Now im currently bothered with my personal life. Liking someone who im not meant to and its giving me a hard time......love is such a annoying thing, tangley like tangled thread, hard to untangle because your in it and everything is connected.

well there are a few paths to take but i decide to take the path of ignorance and i personally believe its the right path, thats what i hope at least.

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it been 5 days since i am in melbourne now.

today i my uncle took me iceskating with my cousins buddy and bullseye. they were like its gonna be cold. better wear something warm....ok. then drove to docklands to have lunch, yum cha at golden leaf, apparantly its the best yum cha in melb LOL. it was very nice. especially their 'har gao' OISHI DESU!!!!

then went iceskating at 12 after yumcha. we went in and paid child fare. hhehehheh yay me child. well anyways the rink was called icehouse. rented skates, size 6 and put them on tightly like i mean very tightly. started off......shit this is scary........woh wooh ahhhhh phew......and played for around alittle less than two hours. it was fun when i finally got use to it. AND GUESS WHAT?! I DIDNT STACK IT.......WOOOOOHOOOOOO

then went to costco, a GIMUNGUS supermarket that sells almost everything unfortunately i didnt get the chance to walk it. but i will ask my auntie if she would take me. on and one more thing, YOU HAVE TO HAVE A MEMBERSHIP TO GET IN! like clubs and things......thats something you dont expect from a supermarket. apparantly its some american store and the food there is SUPER CHEAP. I SERIOUSLY MEAN CHEAP. got a hotdog and a large drink for $2.59......and the drink can be refilled.

then went home........

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last weekend which is the 10th and 11th of july me and an an had a sleep over at lam lam's. and out of all those days we chose the days where there is trackwork but its a good thing, travelling time was so much quicker YAY!

we left central at 5 50 took a coach towards wollongong. HERE WE COME LAM LAM!!!!

arrived to wollongong station around 7 35ish and yes lam lam came and picked us up in her car. and i was told to buy 10pork rolls. YES TEN! it was so heavy. poor magie. we went out to eat straight away with her grandparents and mum at chinese cambodian restaurant for dinner. back to lam lams house afterwards and her dog jumped at us. i was so scared!!!! it was so jumpy and energetic.

then drove back to lam lam's home, on the way back an an wanted to try out lam lam's car and she did. LOL it was hilarious, she wasnt use to the car straight away there were speed bumps and lam lam told her to slow down she slows down 4 metres before the bumps......and over we went. later the way back to lam lam's there a turn and its a pretty steep uphill, she accelerates.... and the car is slowing, trying its hardest to move uphill and lam lam was like accelerate ACCELERATE!!! an an: i am i am......as teh car move slowly uphil hahhahaha it was so funny man. after uphill there is down hill, as teh car goes down hill technically speaking the speed increases and she presses on the breaks and you can hear lam lam saying let go of the breaks LET GO! and slowly we went down hill like we did going up. hahhahaha

we played mahjong with her grandma and it was the first time money was involved (for me). one of the rounds an an had 5, 6, 7, 8 'tong' and i chuck out a 6 'tong' and she 'serng'-ed it and chuck out the 6 she had in her hand. we were all telling her its the same thing, its pointless, just pick up another one and she did and guess what...................she picked up her winning tile. -_"' and she was like saying you guys told me too :D LOL. we played till it was like 12 something i think, cant really remember and we ended it and went upstairs. an an won like $5, thanks to me (hehehe) the calculation went abit not as expected LOL. MY BAD.

we played cards for 90 mins (approx.) and decided to watch a horror movie and that lam lam wouldnt sit next to me. i was so scared even though i watched the movie like some many times. lucky i was next to an an i was like full hiding behind her LOL. i have no idea what we did afterwards.hahahaah wait i asked lam lam and she said we played big 2 while watching twins 2010 concert :D

then we went to bed at around 5ish. well i didnt fall asleep instantly but i know an an did she started snoring hahahaha. later i woke up around 11 ish, brushed my teeth and went down stairs and her dog, named chuckie! LOL was very jumpy again adn my pj's was not as think as my jeans and it felt like it was scratching my thighs as it jumps on me.....ouch.

then stayed in the lounge with her grandparents watching tv until they woke up. later we went out to eat at the same restaurant. later drove down to lam lam's take away store and had fried ice-cream with caramel topping :D. then randomly her brother sat down on your table and started talking. hahahah awkward! and he was like yeah you should take my sister to clubbing. then he left afterwards because we were not talking much.

we got home, and asked the grandma to join us playing mahjong again. i forgot how long we played but we played till it was time for dinner and we ordered pizza from eagle boys. megan volunteered to pick it up and of course we accompanied her. driving peacefully and suddenly lam lam: i think im going the wrong way,i think its the other way....me and an an: are you serious?! :| then we headed back the other way and finally got there. lam lam got out to get the pizza, me and an an stayed in the car and we were talking about how we havent heard about eagle boys and wondered if there was me and an an: eagle girls LOL hahahha. went back and had pizza and salad. then lam lam drove us to the station and caught the bus back to central station.

the bus trip was quiet, both of us had a nap and the trip was really quick. waited for 25 mins before our train arrived. on the train we talked about the joey clip we watched....mm hor yee... ahhaha hilarious. then played cards. big two. speed (continuous and non-continuous) then got a headache so we sat there and chatted.
later walked back to magies house so i can drive her home afterewards BUT THERE WAS NO CAR HOME. SHITBITCH. panicked for like 20 mins, she called her uncle, i called mine. and we have realised that you can only rely on yourself. then surprisingly my brother came home! WE ARE SAVED!!! drove an an home straight away. come home and wanted to stay up and watch soccer finals but too tired and fell asleep.

p.s AN AN I GOT YOUR BACK MAN. YOU CAN RELY ON ME! OH AND LAM LAM TOO! :D

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nothing much was done today.

woke up at 11.

had brunch at 2.

oh and got told off by my grandma for not taking the clothes in when it rain....and she kept klsjdhfkjshfklshfk. i was so upset and depressed. how sad.

had small meals trough out the day.

some delivery came in. and some small indian (i think) man came and said.....we are installing free shower heads......???? no thanks.......

had dinner at 6 i think.

bedtime....maybe 1, 1 30? GOODNIGHT!

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my phone went off .....hello? it was ivan the terrible. sure thing ill see you later.....doot doot.
15 mins later he turns up at my door and off we headed to the gym. and guess what i havent walked in the rain in ages, the last time i did it was back during high school. that time i went home soaking wet and my grandma wasnt too happy about that. LOL

yes back to the gym, spent 90 mins or more in the gym. i did treadmills, bicycle, planks, some of the pinned weight machines actually most of the machines. yes magie has to get fit and into shape before her fitness test.

we left the gym at approximately 4 o'clock ish and headed towards the other side of cabra......centrelink (not happy) JOKING HAHAHAHHA I KNOW IVAN YOUR READING THIS.
and ivan was doing his thing while i waited outside playing on my itouch and it was a pretty long wait, its ok i what i have is time.

finally finished and yes we have become starving children woooosh off we go.....where else? FOOD OF COURSE! and we ordered the same dish thanks to great ives influence and for the first time i cleared everything edible they gave us such as the prawn meat, those noodle thingy, marinated carrot and radish and the salad. EVERYTHING!!!! this has proven that we are very very VERY HUNGRY! it was really nice. and excellent timing to catch up! and thats what we did.

back to magies house it is. hanged around for like an hour or less and back to the gym! CRAZY OR WHAT! and we invited ha ha to come along and she did turn up with out being late for ONCE in awhile and i walked the treadmill YES WALK.....my muscles are still worned out. PAIN! and biked for like 11mins then walked around......GYM is closing a 9. and it was 9 already wooh that was quick.

then off we went home.

p.s thanks for taking me out of the house ivan, we haven't hung out for a while. was a awesome night! :D

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today i decided to go the city and asked if ha ha want to come along and surprisingly she did agree to come along. i left the house at 12 10 wearing a navy blue coat with skinny jeans in my newly bought chucks. got to the station around 12 23 and did i mention i wore my sunnies.......o la la LOL joking joking.

waited for like a few mins and ha ha arrived and we went to eat bun bo hue at that store and when we finished friend's mum saw and came in had a chat for like 5 mins and then left and headed to the station....CITY HERE WE COME.

on the train, the long 45 mins trip to the city obviously the only thing we can do beside playing cards is chat....my favourite :D before we got on the train she was like magie you like to talk humor with older people.....i was like just make them happy.....ha: thats a different side of you.....i: really?.....ha: you dont talk like that to us.....i: its different :D........BOARDED THE TRAIN...... we started our long convo that lasted to central. what did we talk about , hm....well alot of things like what i saw on the train when i catch them, friends, mums, myself hahahhah i have such bad memory i dont even remember LOL.NEXT STOP IS CENTRAL.

when we arrived at central we saw mr. owl. he was heading to college and he wanted to hang with us instead of going to class.....LOL of course we pushed him to attend class and sounded like a little kid wanting to tag along hahhahah KAWAIIII. first thing we did was head to market city and on the way it was cold so i put my hand around ha ha's......i: did you know i like to 'kieu' hand? well obviously when im out with m.t and others or lam lam and things i wouldnt 'kieu' hands but when i go out with jen and godsisters i do. incase i get lost...leaving a smile on my face :D.

we went in paddy's market and walk around and around and around, then went upstairs to market city walked around and around and around LOL. of course we couldnt resist galaxyworld's temptation and went in to play, we played house of the dead 4 and this new pirate rocking shooting game......but we didnt even pass the first stage hilarious :D then we headed to pool! one of the main highlights of the day.

on the way to dixon building for the most beloved game of all! POOL! not the swimming one, the table one LOL. we spend 85 mins playing. the first few games was going pretty well i won a few... then things starts to warm up and the aim starts to go off and both of us begin to loose the interest in playing. i can feel it that ha ha is loosing the interest so i suggest since we are loosing interest just go lar and she was like no we havent bet-ed yet so the serious gaming started. i broke and somethign goes in teh hole! woohooo and i started getting balls in, when it was ha ha's turn she as well, quickly chased up and first (bet) game she lost. OWES MAGIE A DRINK.
Round TWO....double or nothing.......i ended up losing. nothing
Round THREE.....a drink.......i ended up losing by plotting the black ball ....(as usual)
Round FOUR......double or nothing.....lost again.....double......-_-"'

the sky starts to get dark when we left and headed towards townhall. like usuall walked around and around. up and down, take a left, take a right.we somehow ended up in QVB and walked around and i mentioned that i would save up and get a watch for myself as a birthday present. then she started looking at watches and almost bought one. LOL then she ended up saying its all your fault magie, make me want a watch now.......i: me again.....like usual when dont you blame it on me.... walk for a quite a while and finally decided to have dinner. walked towards capitol, entered, infront of jap restaurant.....change of mind and headed towards chinatown, ajisen ramen?......nah lets try another jap restaurant, takes a lift up and....wooh its packed. takes the lift back down and finally decided to to go ajisen ramen, enters, two please. had our meals and sat for a while for the food to digest.

walks out. lets go play the shooting game ha ha says. are you serious? i think its closed i replied. but we still ended up there and played house of the dead 4 again...yes we love that game. and i got good excellent amazing, as i got them i faced ha ha, im an excellent ahead, oh look amazing, im another amazing ahead of you :D and in the end i ended up dying before her......hahahhahaha

then we headed home and it was freezing. when i was walking back to the car, i felt dizzy and it felt kinda weird. like i was slowly losing my conscious and dosed off. maybe it was too cold. and she drove me home! awwww :D

p.s. THANKS HA HA FOR ACCOMPANYING ME. IT WAS A COLD BUT WARM NIGHT. it really meant something.

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you can say it is one of the loneliness days of the year so far. having friends as though not having any. i do not know how to use words to describe this feeling but it feels difficult to bare with. thinking about why i exist in life, even though i still have family members present but it kinda makes no different to me.

lets say its like my room, and its only me in it. others outside it its outside. unable to understand whats it like in my world, even though i breathe the same air as those outside, under the same moon and stars when we look above our heads but whats it really like is totally different.

who knows maybe one day i will be able to find a friend that i can trust with all my heart and tell her/him everything so i dont have to hold it in even until now.....its hard, unable to share what your going through. its true what megan said, i am going to explode one day and i feel that day is coming sooner than wanted.

AAHAHH or maybe that person im seeking right beside me but i just dont notice it or its not the right timing, once the timing is right i maybe able to finally release myself and be relieved...............................................................hopefully.

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